2013, the year I reached the big 21, where the phrase 'not a girl, but not yet a woman' applies. This is because the fact that I am no longer a tenager but neither a fully grown matured woman. This is the phase of life which is supposed to be the most adventurous, where mistakes are supposed to be made and where heartbreaks are inevitable. It is also a phase where we truly learn about life and learn to be mature in making important decisions and be mature when it comes to matters of the heart.
2013 has taught me a lot indeed. Being loved, broken, let down and also to not be selfish in many ways. I learned that no matter how hard you fall, always get back up and must bear in mind that there are many other who are in way worse situations than me.
The most important lesson I learned is that when it comes to love, there is never an easy answer. You may fall in love with a someone who never love you back and vice versa. But when it does happen, it teaches you to never be selfish. Don't hold on to that person because then you'll only be lying to yourself. If that person is the one, he/she will come back to you one day. All you can do is pray to the All Mighty and ask for forgiveness and to show you the one meant for you.
I made a point and promise to myself that I will not open my heart randomly to poeple, that I will try my best not to fall in love or at least not to try to show the love. My heart has been through too much and for now, it needs some rest. That's why I decide to build a wall around it, to protect and guard it. Because I do not want to lose hope in love and in men. I am afraid that it my heart is broken once again, that will be my final straw and I can never trust both love and men.
So for now, I make a point to live the best out of my life. From now onwards, I will try to live my life properly, go out for mew adventures, see the world and grow up to be a mature and sophisticated woman. I want to live for myself and do the things I want to.
Hopefully, the years to come will bring bliss and success InsyaAllah.
