Winter Break

6 weeks of holiday may seem to be like heaven to many people.
Especially for students studying abroad like me.
Well, I can tell you that mine is not so great...
Most of my friends went home..
The locals need to celebrate Christmas with families..
Malaysian, Bruneian, Greeks and Dubaians went back to their hometown.
Those who didn't go back..well,
they travel to places since they have many friends around UK
Unlike me... none from my school are here yet.

So, I kinda like spend my holidays in my room
Just doing my essays, watch movies, sleep and eat.
Kinda of a depressing one.
I know...it sucks...
not only that, I'm home alone!
Since all my housemates are not here.
Not to say...but sometimes its creepy
I can here voices in my room which sounded like they came from outside..
But when I stepped out, the voices are gone.
I know it sounds ridiculous but that's what I heard.
I try not to think about it much so I keep distracting myself.

So apart of finishing another 2 essays, I really don't know what to do.
I want to go Bath, Manchester or London.
But I really can't go alone. I'll look crazy.
So, this is my pathetic life.
Spending 6 weeks of holiday alone, locked in my house.

Hurm... Sort of TRUE

‎45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
...4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

something to be known.

i may be a burden for you,

i may be the one you hate the most.

i may be the one you wish to be gone.

i may be your black sheep.

you may want me out of your life.

you may never forgive me.

you may shut down for me

you may want me to be gone forever....

but i will not exists another longer.

for then my life may be taken away.

and that is when you may be happy.

but this is what you don't know.

When the stars are in her eyes
And the sun is in her smile
The only moment in a life
That happens the same time
Is when a woman loves a man

She'll be a mother and a child
Sacrifice her days and nights
And no other will exsist
She'll put her life in every kiss
When a woman loves a man

And you'll be amazed at when you're stumbling
She'll fight for you
And won't let you give in
She'll do all that she can
When a woman loves a man

A soothing breeze always blows
Somebody understands another soul
It's like the planets have aligned
Every sentence has a rhyme
When a woman loves a man

Oh, you'll be amazed how when
You're needing it
She'll fight for you
From the begining to the end
And she'll do all that she can
When a woman loves a man

It's the greatest gift of all
Knowing that unconditionally
She'll catch you when you fall


When the stars are in her eyes
And the sun is in her smile
She'll be a mother and a child
But all at the same time
When a woman loves a man

She'll be your air,
She'll bring you life
She'll make sacrifices
When a woman loves a man

A Better and Stronger Me!

Experience is a vital part in life. It teaches us to grow.

It gives us space to think back and improve ourselves.

In life, the real education is not the academic excellence, but experience itself.

Maturity develops through experience, what we encountered before and how it affects our life.

In years I've grown through experience. Teaching me the true meaning of life and how it works.

I've met so many people that shapes me today.

Either the good ones or the bad ones.

I love all the people that truly loved and cared for me.

You guys will always be in my heart.

When we face difficult times in life, we tend to deal with them in various ways.

In this period of time, you will find your true friends and your poser friends.

Well I had personally faced a couple of those times.

Truthfully, i'm glad it happened to me cause I can open my eyes to all the deceptions.

I spent a moment to think hard and listen to my heart.

I realized that I had nothing to lose.

Loosing friends that are being jerks is just the thing that I needed.

You guys can say whatever you want behind me,

but none of you ever had the guts or should I say balls to say it directly to me.

You guys are nothing but a bunch of cowards.

Itz safe to say that none of you are what you are if it wasn't for me.

I feel so sorry for you guys....

Talking bad on others, lying here and there....

Look what it got you!

Hell yeah!

But I should thank, you guys for one thing aite!

You guys just made me a BETTER and STRONGER person!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

sometimes in life, you wonder whether can you put your trust on others?

whether they won't turn their back on you?

is it worth the risk?

I have been dealing this questions my whole life.

Before, i do believe that everyone should be given fair chances and to start off good.

All the experience that I've gained had really taught me hard lessons about life.

They made me think twice about my principals.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Seven letters that make up one simple yet meaningful word.

There are many types of friends out there.

The ones that are fairly nice to you, ones that help you out when you're in trouble.

And the posers that pretend to be good to you but truly talk bad behind you.

For my 19 years of my existence in this dear planet, I've encountered almost all types of friends.

Sweet...bad memories tucked safely at the back of my head.

To those posers, well, hear me out!

You guys will never get a true friend who will get your back when you're in deep trouble.

You won't be able to succeed in life cause you'll never be satisfied with yourself and others.

You will only end up chocking at your own words while the others strive all the way to success!

To all my TRUE FRIENDS out there, I'll always love you guys very much!!

You guys are a part of my life and will always be.

You've given me strength and motivation in life and I will always thank you for that.

And not to forget my family as well, especially Mummy and Papa cause you guys are definitely my true friend in my whole life.

a comeback!

itz been awhile since i wrote an entry in this blog.

well the main reason would be the last couple of months, i'm freaking busy.

i have to prepare the foundation of law dinner which i am in the committee, i have tons of last minute assignments and the best of all, i had my FINALS!!

Finally, i had successfully completed my asasi programme of two semesters.

Well, it has been quite a journey even in only two sems which is roughly about 9 months.

The first semester is my fav! I mean i enjoyed it more than during the second semester.

let me tell ya why.

I didn't really have as much assignments in semester one compared to the second semester, which means, i enjoyed myself more during the first semester.

I was the class representative during the second semester which gave me double the work load compared to my friends.

Then, i am apart of the uitm mooting team. only a few assasian who took part.

Again, it gave me extra work to do.

There was much more dramas in the second semester compared to the first.

I mean, i don't really get involved in it but i don't really like it either.

i mean, its unpleasant you know?

the first semester was interesting b'coz i got to meet new faces with different characters.

i learned many new things in life...

to not trust those who maybe seems so nice to you coz in the end, they are just acting.

well...

at the end of the day, i love my friends! thanx so much guys! you've changed my life!

anyway, there's something that happened during my last two days of my assasi

i just can't believe theses type of people still exists in this modern world!!

i mean, SERIOUSLY????

okay, here's the story...

on Wednesday, a few of my friends decided that they wanted to visit the old Mona Fendi's house

so, we rented a car and unfortunately, it was a manual car.

since non of us can drive a manual and all of us were girls,

i asked a favor from one of my friend (R),

but little that i know, some of my friends lost faith in his driving,

so, they called my friend's ex-boyfriend(A) to drive us.

i was quite shocked in the first place since their breakup was quite controversial.

plus, my friend had coupled with my boyfriend's friend in palam.

so i hesitated in the first place but after asking him hundreds of time if he was okay...i agreed

so off we went. first destination was to the house. i didn't go in..as i was scared

only two of my 'friends' went in while me and another three of us stayed outside.

We circled around in order to avoid suspicions as we can be caught trespassing.

so, after that, i asked (A) if he could drive us to palam. i asked quite a few times and to my surprised, he agreed. so off we went.

i got to know when we were on the way that (A)'s friends had been calling and were pissed of

for the fact that he drove us palam.

so my 'friends' had to send (A) back to uitm and had to come back and pick me up.

I really pitied them. but i'm more furious at those who made them do this,

Seriously immature!! It was supposed to settle by then. But no... they kept on pissing off with us

and blamed me. i admit it was part my fault eyh.

But you guys have no freaking right to be mad!

During my last day of exam, all of the bunch demanded to see me in other words, a confrontation. no offense, but it ain't gentlemen at all.

since i don't see any point of seeing either one of them, i never did.

It's safe to say that i let them pissed of more at me but hey, they looked like clowns ok!

Basically, what happened had taught me a lot bout people.

the immaturity and how it contributes to the stupidity of 'guys' in general.

here's something to think about:

don't think you're all grown up and have all the mighty power, because in reality, you're nothing but mommy's boy!

new year yaww!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR YAW!!!!

itz been a while since i visited my blog... hehe

sorry peeps.... been frreakin buzy lately...

with all the assignments...the moot practice...the annual dinner preparations

i'm pulled in all different directions...

but...study is study!

there's a ton of assignments due this year..

and i can tell you...

itz been like hell to finish those ass

ignments on time!!

sleepless nights....escaping meals...

blotched eyes with eye bags...

such a stressful string of events...

after one another...

it just makes me a better and stronger person

inside and out...

luckily...i have friends that had helped me a lot...

they were always supporting me...

helped me with the assignments...

to the guys group who went to save us the whole class

by voluntarily present first...

i know you guys have not finished preparing at that time...

so thanks a million!!!