an outburst

It really is sickening when a person whom you thought is really your friend would turn his back on you. Its true I can't give you what you want in the first place and I am sorry. But you know it very well the reason why I can't give you what you want because I really love him and not you.

I really am happy that you have finally found someone that is for you. But I am really damn sick when you really turn your back on your priorities.... You should know better who got you into this. i gave you the chance, the opportunity. Don't you shut me out because I was the one who got you into this. This is really freaking annoying!! It is really surprising that a genius smarty pants like you to actually behave like this. I guess I didn't know you well enough do i?

Whatever it is.....I would still like to remind you what your priorities are.
here, you still have a team that needs you. the freaking competition is next week and the team kinda needs the captain to work this out! This is really not about yourself you know.....there are another four person in the team. Plus, I am your freaking partner! How are we suppose to work hand in hand when we don't even communicate with each other and I don't even know what you are doing!!! This is really unacceptable and selfish of you!!

You know, I really do hope that you can get your head in the game! because even if you really don't give a damn about this, well fyi, the rest of us do!!!

I looked up to the sky, and wondered was it here or not? Me heart beated increased...heart pounded a rock and roll tune. Waited for this moment to arrive...

Ramadhan...how i've missed you over the year... And here you are again...visiting me and the whole Muslim community. The food and bazaar...the terawih....
All that came with you...

And this year, you come and visit me in a different situation. For the past five years, you visited me in my school....accompanying me for a month. Now, i'm here, in the tertiary level...no more spoon feeding.....everything on my own... Starting to learn how to REALLY live life...hehehe

Anyways, I do really apologize for not going for terawih as often as i used to. Well, with all the work load and the hectic time-table, I just can't seem to perform it. Whenever I can, than I'll surely perform it.

I hate it when I get all this sickness. And being told that I can't follow you is really unacceptable. You're only here for a month and I will never leave you based on this silly matter.

Anyway, I intend to make the best out of your visit. hehe... enjoying the food and the feast!!!! woohoo!!!
hahaah....so long!

My new stuff!

I should have just thanked the All Mighty for all the blessing...a great family, great friends and a wonderful boyfriend..
My mom has just got back from a trip to Bandung and Jakarta with all her sisters and aunt. Trust they all had a great time judging by all the stuff she bought and all the photos. When I came back, I was literally shocked to see my room turned into a store room...with all the plastic bags,boxes...and all those other stuff she bought. Nevertheless, I was grateful that my mum bought me loads of stuff...
I got a Prada handbag, shawls, pashminas, telekungs, shirts and above all, a wig( i didn't even know what to do with it...never actually used one, what else own one....
hahaha...what a joke ehh...
Anyways...got so much ahead of me...with my inter-parts coming up, overloading assignments, and so much more... really need to find a way to manage my time.....I really do hope I can do that plus, have fun while doing it....

so above all.....I am thankful for everything I have. Not to say that whatever I have now is totally awesome...it's just moderate but enough for me...and I'll try to make the best out of it.....Insyaallah...

that will be it for now....
toodles!!!